Good evening, and happy Friday! We finally made it to the weekend!!! ๐ On the cusp of my final days at home before spring semester begins, I’d like to share a short review of my first read of 2020: the stunning Turtles All the Way Down by renowned author John Green (you’ve probably heard his name attached to novels such as The Fault in Our Stars, Looking for Alaska, or Paper Towns, among some of his other written work).
I checked out Turtles All the Way Down at around 3:00 on Wednesday afternoon. I finished Turtles All the Way Down at around 11:00 on Wednesday evening. It was one of those novels that was impossible to put down – but not in a thriller sort of sense. There were no explosions, no mythical creatures, no magic spells or impossible heists to hook a reader. In fact, the nature of the story is quite contrary to the fantastical. Turtles All the Way Down tells the story of Aza, a 16-year-old girl who experiences severe anxiety and OCD. When Aza’s best friend Daisy wants to solve the mystery of a missing mysterious billionaire through Aza’s link to his son, Davis, she’s not too sure about the idea. But through a rekindled relationship with a childhood friend and his younger brother, Aza sees the trajectory of her life begin to change. Equipped with a true high-school coming-of-age, YA setting, the novel sets out on one of Green’s heaviest quests to date: learning how to cope with love, loss, and above all, the battle waged within oneself.
The most eye-opening aspect of the novel to me was how closely John Green relates with its subject matter. Like Aza, Green also experiences symptoms of anxiety and OCD: and also shares some of her triggers, like anxiety related to bacteria and disease and the struggle to discover what truly drives one to determine the course of their lives. Readers can see what Green’s world is like through Aza’s eyes — at least, to a certain extent. The toll that Aza’s behaviors take on her is heartbreaking in certain areas of the novel, and New York Times editor Jennifer Senior phrases my connection to Green’s protagonist better than I ever could: “One needn’t be suffering like Aza to identify with it. One need only be human. Everyone, at some point, knows what itโs like when the mind develops a mind of its own.”
Turtles All the Way Down may possess a small cast of characters – primarily focusing on Aza, her best friend Daisy, and childhood friend Davis along with his younger brother Noah, but the story never feels small. Green uses this smaller lineup of major characters to magnify Aza’s relationships with those around her, and reminds me a lot of my own grade school friendships. Friends are self-absorbed, or whiny, or overdramatic, but at the end of the day, they’re occasionally all that you’ve got. The reconciliation of Daisy and Aza’s friendship after a harsh falling out near the climax of the novel is a beautiful illustration of learning to accept one’s flaws and actively seeking to improve a relationship. Aza learns some hard lessons throughout the story, and I’m still learning how to best address some of her social struggles.
In the end, I believe that a lot of younger readers can see part of themselves reflected in Aza, and this really contributes to how they view her choices throughout the story, both good and bad. Creating a connection with a character doesn’t justify their actions or flaws, but it allows one to develop a heart for those in similar situations. We all may not have to cope with severe mental illness, but we have experienced the level of comfort of talking to someone digitally rather than in person. We have all listened to or participated in things just because one of our friends likes them. We have all dealt with the tragedy of loss and the anxiety of an undefined relationship. Turtles All the Way Down is beautiful to me because, although it is a heavy read, it shows that everyone is capable of giving and deserving of receiving love. I cannot recommend it enough if you wish to read a valuable perspective on the world – or perhaps to follow the vein of an eccentric mystery.
While I may not have a quote from Shakespeare’s The Tempest like Davis often wrote, I do have a quote from John Green himself:
Mot joyeux d’aujourd’hui: “When you acknowledge that there is nothing repulsive or unforgivable or shameful about yourself, it becomes easier to be that authentic person and feel like youโre living a less performed life.” -John Green
Much love,
Alyson

